The Bump ~ 38 Weeks

With every passing day we have made it another day further than I ever suspected, or was ever prepared for. The days are becoming longer and just that little bit harder to make it through to the end. For no other reason than I am being impatient. I want to hold my baby, I want to smell and taste my baby, I want to see my babies angel face. I want to bury myself in my baby and my family and my home and just lose ourselves to each other.

As the end nears, I find myself thinking about the things I will miss once baby is here and my tummy is no longer full of wiggly, kicking arms and legs. I will miss the way my body carries this body. The ever growing belly, each and every day just that little bit bigger, showing me that Jelly is growing, healthy and strong. I will miss the movements. The knowing that there is life within me. I will miss the gentle reminder that this world is so much bigger than I know. 

As baby makes their journey into our lives there is so much to look forward to, to welcome. But there is also so much to leave behind, to say goodbye to. In these last weeks I am holding life close to me, trying to embrace each and every moment of our lives as a family of three. Evelyn as an only child, as my baby. But, with each passing day my desire for our lives to change becomes stronger.

Every time anything in my body changes I can feel myself fill with excitement, thinking, this is it. But every time I become disappointed. Baby is still cooking, still waiting and I just know that the day they decide to grace us with their presence will be one of the best days of our lives. I am overly excited.

Jelly, you have never been wanted so much.

Its you and me babe, together we will find a way to be together