Sometimes I actually cannot believe that I am pregnant again. That in as little as 16 weeks (or less, or more) I will be holding another child. Another creation of Anthony and I. That our family will have grown but just one small number, but one huge addition! Sometimes I just cannot believe I could be so lucky.
I also cannot believe that I am 24 weeks pregnant... that I have less time to come than time that has passed. It seems to be going by so quickly, without me having a chance to notice. I am so glad that we have taken the time to do these photo's every week because I truly believe that without them, I would forget to take the time to enjoy this pregnancy. Life with a toddler just slips by and before you know it, the toddler is almost 20 months old and you are past halfway pregnant.
This week, on a whole, has been relatively uneventful. If you ignore the agonising pain that seems to be increasing between my legs and the multiple times I have collapsed in the hall way and had to crawl my way to bed. I have never felt a pain quite like this and I am yet to find the words to describe it to you. My midwives are not concerned at this point but if I continue to have to walk in this way I will be raising my own concerns.
Speaking of midwives, during our appointment on thursday last week we had the most beautiful moment. Evelyn just shows me each and every day how capable and beautiful she is going to be as a big Sister. As I laid on the table with the midwife searching for Jelly's heartbeat, Evelyn sat on Daddy's lap and watched with concern. Until Jelly's heart beat began to sing through the doppler and Evelyn smiles and dances along with her little baby sibling to be. It was one of the most beautiful moments I have had in my Mothering journey so far. My two babies, bonding already, one sleeping safely within my womb and the other playing by my feet.
I never knew I could feel a love like this. I never knew I could want some one so desperately. My body aches to hold yours Jelly. My heart races at the thought of your beautiful face. My arms are waiting for you. Soon we will all be together, as one.
Its you and me babe, together we will complete this family
